At first glance it might seem that I am just a happy, normal girl who loves to bake and walk her dog. However, I have suffered with an eating disorder since I was 13. It was only in May 2014 when I realised that this Voice in my head was slowly but surely trying to kill me. And so began the long, hard, and painful journey which is recovery...

I want My Cocoa Stained Apron to be a special place...a place for reflection, memories, shared stories...and of course a little bit of cocoa-staining ;) Recovery might be the hardest thing you ever choose to do in this life. But it is also the bravest and best decision you will ever make.:)

Tuesday, 14 July 2015

Day 2: 20 random facts about me!!! ;)

I loveeee doing these!! So fun to do and a brilliant distraction..please feel free to join in the blog challenge or comment below :)
  1. My middle name is Jade, I think this is because if I was a boy it would have been James, or maybe Mam just liked that name? I don't really know to be honest. :p My first name literally means "industrious" in some old language which I think sums me up quite well! :p
  2. ducks have always been my favourite animal of all. I just love these cute, comical, dumpy waterbirds with their webbed feet, beautiful plumage, and beaks which always seem to be perked up in a smile. I wonder if a prize for the most soft ducks gathered into one bedroom exists anywhere in the world, because I think if there was I would certainly qualify for a runner's up prize. You should SEE my room!!! ;)
  3. I am an avid nature lover and have always been what you would call a bit "green-fingered". I adore being outside in nature, whether that be a windswept beach, a leafy forest, a grassy meadow or a sunlit riverbank. Another one of my peculiarities is that I am absolutely fanatical about the different branches of the natural world. Going out into the woods or up the mountains or whatever, I would usually be constantly peering around me at the trees and the wild flowers and trying to identify them, or gazing at the sky in the hope of catching a glimpse of some kind of bird. As a girl I spent many an hour pouring over nature identification guides and thus committed many of the names and descriptions to memory. 
  4. I love medieval stuff, and love books about medieval people, or poking around old castle ruins with my head full of images of the knights on their white steeds and damsels in distress fluttering their pretty dresses and staring mournfully out of arrow slits for hours upon end. Morokia is a reflection I suppose of my love of medieval history (amongst other things!!!)
  5. I am really superstitious and eagerly buy into the existence of ghosts, witches, faeries and goblins. At the house we were staying in in Mallorca(which was quite old may I add) I got really freaked out one night as I was sitting in the twilight with only one lamp on and I was convinced I saw a large, flickering shadow flit across the wall. Yes, of course it might have been a filament of my imagination, as my family all agreed that it was. But. I saw what I saw and Im standing by that..and I did NOT sit in that room again for the remainder of the holiday.
  6. I still have the little toy duck, Ducky, that I was given as a baby and she and her teddy friends are the heroes and heroines of many of the childhood stories I wrote. 
  7. I have had three rabbits and three guinea pigs in the past. Snuffles was my first rabbit. He was a beautiful grey and white Dutch rabbit and looked as if butter wouldn't melt in his mouth. But then there came the day that he got out of his pen, went down to the bottom of the garden, and there we found him playing with another rabbit, a wild one. A few months later, and he gave birth to five adorable baby rabbits. Hence the discovery that my little boy was not a boy after all, but a beautiful doe with a bit of a wild streak in her.
  8. I did horseriding before Lizzy did, believe it or not...I went along with my sister to the riding school to watch her have her first ever lesson. But Lizzy was too afraid to get on the big, bulky chestnut the riding school had picked out for her. Daddy turned to me, standing meekly at the edge of the arena in my wellies and crop trousers, and asked me would I like to ride the horse, instead!! I still love horses and would love to be able to ride one :'( I still love horses alot; I think they are the most beautiful animals. I don't think there is a sight more stirring then seeing a horse in full gallop, mane and tail streaming, nostrils flaring. 
  9. My favourite places in the world are West Cork, Sligo, Kilkenny, and Snowdonia in Wales...all such beautiful, spectacular places which I have such happy, sweet memories of <3
  10. As a little girl I adored animal biscuits, Mr Kipling French Fancies and whole galaxy you probably have guessed at this stage I have a bit of a sweet tooth. ;)
  11. I nearly got carried away by a wave when I wasfour years old, building sandcastles upon a beach at Brittany. The waves took away my favourite green bucket and I was absolutely traumatised!! But one of my biggest fears to this day are huge waves an deep water. There's not alot that frightens me but those two things really do make my spine tingle at the very thought.
  12. I am a terrible hoarder and am also very untidy when it comes to my own stuff. My various different piles of "junk" which are scattered hilly-knilly about the house are enough to drive my poor Mammy mad. 
  13. Don't laugh, but i actually dont know how to plait :'( yep, despite the fact that up till I was 18, my hair tumbled to my waist, and even now it's not exactly short, as you can see. it's on my to do list, to learn how to plait. 
  14. I only started wearing makeup when I was 17, when I went on a trip to the Gaeltacht with my friends. And yes of course I had to ask Mammy how to put it on properly and what exactly I needed to get!!!!
  15. I love folklore and am very interested in culture, myths, legends, you name it. Do I believe in the Loch Ness Monster? Of course!!! Would I step into a rath - those earthen enclosures of earth where the fairies were supposed to have lived in Celtic times? Of course not!!
  16. As a girl my favourite toys were Sylvanian Families, those cute little animals in adorable little clothes which resided in a combination of colorful dollhouses. And of course as already mentioned I did love my teddies. Barbie dolls I liked as well. And Lego. Lego men often attacked the Barbies in the games I used to play with Matt.
  17. I love Irish as a language and am really keen to learn more of this wonderful, ancient language . I do have my cupla focail but I would really love to expand and develop my Gaeilge further.  
  18. My favourite kind of chocolate is Milka Oreo or Cadbury Golden Biscuit Crunch. Oh. And Malt Easter. Ever heard of it? Think Maltesers. And then think of a solid, thick chocolate bar with squares of the same kind of chunkiness as those found in a Yorkie Bar. Malt Easter is basically a collaboration of that, 
  19. I wouldnt cal myself a thrill-seeker exactly, but I love nothing more than frightening the life out of myself on scary rollercoasters (the scarier the better!!), and riding downhill on a bike is pretty awesome right :p
  20. I love art though I dont really think I'm that great, haha! I love painting by numbers or just drawing stuff free hand. And as a little girl, a rainy afternoon could never be spent in a better way then sitting at the big playroom table drawing maps for my teddies. :p 
One of my painting by numbers; my favourite one "A Scottish Glen"


  1. Great post! such a cute rabbit :) xo

    1. Aww hun thank you so so much <3 that one is actually not Snuffles hun, I couldn't find a picture of her :'( that is my second rabbit, the lovely lop-eared Smudge! Take care hun I hope you are doing ok <3 xxx