At first glance it might seem that I am just a happy, normal girl who loves to bake and walk her dog. However, I have suffered with an eating disorder since I was 13. It was only in May 2014 when I realised that this Voice in my head was slowly but surely trying to kill me. And so began the long, hard, and painful journey which is recovery...

I want My Cocoa Stained Apron to be a special place...a place for reflection, memories, shared stories...and of course a little bit of cocoa-staining ;) Recovery might be the hardest thing you ever choose to do in this life. But it is also the bravest and best decision you will ever make.:)

Wednesday, 4 March 2015

Life is too short to not be happy...

Life is too short to be anything but happy.
Falling down is part of life.
Getting back up is living.

My dear friend Olivia wrote a beautiful little post on just some of the things that make her feel happy. (Click Here to check out her post! ;)
And so in continuation of this positive theme, I compiled my own little list! :)

I feel happy..... :)

...when I hug a dear friend and feel their arms around me.

...when I walk my dog on a crisp, clear morning.

...when I knead bread dough and watch it rise.

...when my cat comes and sits on my lap and purrs at me.

...when I come home after a week away and see my loved ones waiting for me.

...when I receive a letter from a special friend far away.

...when I snuggle up in bed with a hot water bottle.

...when I cycle in the summer sunshine and feel the warmth on my face.

...when I scatter chocolate buttons over my hot choc and watch them melt! ;)

...when I give a loved one a gift and see the delight on their face.

...when I sit in front of a log fire on a cold winter's night.

...when I walk upon the beach and feel the sand between my toes.

...when I walk in the woods and smell the delicate fragrance of the new spring flowers.

...when I wear a pretty dress and twirl about so the skirt spins around me.

...when I stand at the top of a mountain and look out at the beautiful view.

...when I see the joy and excitement of others around me.

True happiness is possible.
Love, live and let go.

Being with Benny...just one of the many things that make me happy :) xxx


  1. I love this list, its so heartwarming, personal and full of hope for the future :)

    1. <3 thanks so much hun <3 this was such a lovely idea it really made me feel better, writing this! :) xxx