At first glance it might seem that I am just a happy, normal girl who loves to bake and walk her dog. However, I have suffered with an eating disorder since I was 13. It was only in May 2014 when I realised that this Voice in my head was slowly but surely trying to kill me. And so began the long, hard, and painful journey which is recovery...

I want My Cocoa Stained Apron to be a special place...a place for reflection, memories, shared stories...and of course a little bit of cocoa-staining ;) Recovery might be the hardest thing you ever choose to do in this life. But it is also the bravest and best decision you will ever make.:)

Thursday, 19 November 2015

Likes, dislikes and goals!!! :D

When was the last time I did a blog challenge?? Like a MILLENIUM ago it seems!!! :o  This one is from the blog of a girl who has a very special place in my heart and who remains one of my truest inspirations. Check out her own post HERE :) <3 xxx

7 things I like...

  • Walking on a frosty winter's morning, when all the spider webs are pearllike with dew drops and the leaves are all crunchy and crisp beneath your feet. <3
  • Going to the beach, the zoo, the mountains...a random trip anywhere sounds good to me. ;)
  • Going for a hot choc and a catch up with a good friend <3
  • Medieval stuff. Castles, old creepy dungeons, Lancelot, you name it - if it's medieval then I wanna hear about it. ;)
  • Making bread. Especially the kneading part and then when it's in the oven and that divine smell is wafting through the house...mmmmm
  • Christmas!!! The smell of the Christmas tree, the twinkly lights in the shop windows, buying and receiving presents, the annoying ads on the tv...awwwww sorry but yea I love christmas.
  • Hugs, getting letters in the post, receiving a cute message...just those little things in life which make me feel loved and safe.

6 things I don't like...

  • being too hot..makes me feel queasy and sticky, ugh.
  • days when it just rains and rains and RAINS and you can't go outside at all!!
  • being on my own for long periods of time :'(
  • when people walk really slowly in front of you in the sreet and you can't get past...arghhhh!!! ;)
  • don't laugh but..sleeping in... yep, i hate it..i think its such a waste of a day!! call me weird but anyways!!! ;)

5 things that make me happy!! :)

  • When someone makes me a hot choc.... awww <3
  • Having my cat nestled in my lap <3
  • getting comments on my blog and hearing from my special readers <3
  • baking something special for someone and seeing the delight and surprise on their faces when they receive their gitft.
  • riding rollercoasters and screaming myself silly at the very top!! ;)

4 things I want to do...

  • Travel the world of course ;) and meet all my AMAZING blogging friends along the way!!
  • Start volunteering and making a difference in my community.
  • Go to Disneyland Orlando <3 omgggg
  • Have my own baking business!! A little cafe would be nice, with a duck pond outside and cute little tables covered in checkerboard tablecloths.

3 goals...

  • Stick to my meal plan every day and to NEVER give in to ED voice :D 
  • To complete Morokia (my medieval fantasy story): all three books!! I have a story that I think needs to be heard ;)
  • To blog at least every two days..not only do I love blogging, I know now that it has such a positive influene on my own recovery and that by doing so I can reach out to others and help them in their journey too. <3

2 things I want to achieve.

  • Realising that I am worth recovery and that I deserve to be happy and healthy.
  • Fully recover from ED, leave all trace of it behind. To find the real Emmy, who is happy, free and healthy. To make up to my loved ones for everything I have put them through with my illness and to make them happy and proud.

1 favourite Quote...

Every day is a new beginning.
Treat it that way.
Stay away from what could have been and start looking at what could be. 
if nothing changed there would be no butterflies. <3 xxx


  1. I am sure you will achieve all your goals, keep fighting! take care xo

    1. thank you so much hun!! and i definitely will!! <3 hope you are well dear <3 xxxxx

  2. I loved your list, thank you for also joining in :) I love christmas as well :) And i absaloutly hate slow walkers and even sleeping in... it really is a waste of a morning, haha, i like being productive! Stay strong with recovery, you can do it!! Just dont listen to that ED voice, you are stronger than your eating disorder!

    1. <3 aww Izzy thanks so much <3 we are alike in more ways than i thought! ;) thanks so much Izzy and I will stay strong I know I need to! take care dear Izzy <3 xxx

  3. Aaaaaaaaw my huuuuuuunniiii <3 <3 such a wonderful heartwarming post ;) I truuuuly love your amazingly cute style of writing, which is so beautiful ;) Love everything about this one, because it is so positive ;) keep this up my girliiiiie ;) I know you can reach everything :) <3 LOOOOOOVE U my hot choc Emmy ;)

    1. <3 aww huni thanks a million huni <3 :* im really glad you liked it and i hope it cheered you up huni <3 Love YOUUUU my Nutella girlee stay strong for me Ange hun <3 xxxxxxx