tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post9184760993020590959..comments2023-05-31T08:26:05.818-07:00Comments on My Cocoa Stained Apron: The child of my ED... :'(Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-59175298747774836962015-07-27T08:40:33.922-07:002015-07-27T08:40:33.922-07:00<3 thank you so so so much hun <3 this reall...<3 thank you so so so much hun <3 this really means so much. I think one of the reasons why I am struggling a bit at the moment hun is that my support system has sort of crumbled and I have noone to talk to about my fears and worries, or to check up on me in terms of the meal plan. <br /><br />Thank you so much for your kind words hun <3 you are amazing. All my love hun take care <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-53659036364760031012015-07-27T08:37:10.378-07:002015-07-27T08:37:10.378-07:00Sonya thank you so so much for your message, it re... Sonya thank you so so much for your message, it really touched me in a hundred ways and my heart really goes out to you, you have just been through so so much I am so sorry that you had to suffer all that you have been through with anorexia :'( but to hear your story and how you are now actively fighting for recovery is absolutely, so inspiring. Thank you so so much for writing Sonya, all my love and best wishes. xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-10717919805544615792015-07-27T06:25:35.035-07:002015-07-27T06:25:35.035-07:00I'm glad it made you feel better. You're d...I'm glad it made you feel better. You're definitely not alone. EDs are just so isolating that they make you feel alone, but please do remember that you're not, and if you do ever feel alone, this is when you need to reach out. I am always here if you need to reach out at all ever. I completely understand the fear you feel about change and growing up. We simply have to accept this fear, terrifying as it is, and go with the flow. Everyone feels this fear to some extent, but having an ED exacerbates this fear somewhat. The best thing you can do is to go with the flow, it makes life so much easier. This is the leap you need to take lovely. I'm not saying it's easy, but it is do-able! Remember I'm always here for you xoxoxAngharad https://www.blogger.com/profile/03276065419684298280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-51907054558761703432015-07-26T18:59:09.056-07:002015-07-26T18:59:09.056-07:00Hi Emily, my heart so bleeds for you. You have to ...Hi Emily, my heart so bleeds for you. You have to fight this no matter what. I've been anorexic for 35 years. Can you imagine this. Seven of these years I was so bad I was told twice I would die. I fouught hard but only recovered so that I was never real bad but not normal. I've been so blessed with a husband and 8 children (how I managed to have them is a miracle, even my doctor says this). I still see my doctor after 30 years, he is great. I've osteoporosis and broke three bones in my pelvis 2 years ago. That was a wake up call for me. My kids are begging me to recover. For once I'm starting to do ok. I've a way to go but my mindset is different. If I was there I'd give you a big hug. You are special and worth recovery. Do this now while you're still young. sonyanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-77014305498741537672015-07-26T15:30:23.647-07:002015-07-26T15:30:23.647-07:00hun thank you so so much, hearing from you always ...hun thank you so so much, hearing from you always makes me smile so <3 and you are so right hun, it is so true, letting ED win will only make ED stronger, and then patterns and habits develop which are so hard to break and which can potentially be so harmful.. :'( thanks so so much hun, your words make me feel stronger and more determined, hopefully tomorrow will be a much more positive day <3 all my love to you hun <3 xxxxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-65670241213246405982015-07-26T15:06:34.080-07:002015-07-26T15:06:34.080-07:00<3 oh hun thank you so so much for your comment...<3 oh hun thank you so so much for your comment once again <3 really means so so much to me hun <3 And what you suggested hun sounds such a good idea. I think it is so worth a try, I really want to work on this problem hun as I truly believe it will be my downfall, if I do not tackle it. Thank you so so much hun, you are so kind and considerate, I appreciate this so much <3 xxxxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-45966620563123707162015-07-26T14:38:45.668-07:002015-07-26T14:38:45.668-07:00Oh hun thank you so so much for this you are such ...Oh hun thank you so so much for this you are such a star <3 you r comment really helped me to feel so much better! And to hear that I am not alone in this, too hun, as oftentimes I feel so stupid and pathetic, as it truly feels as if I am the sole person on earth who feels the way I do. Change and growing up really is so scary hun, that is one thing I have learnt; I just hope I can find the strength and courage I need to take that massive leap forward. All my love hun thank you with all my heart <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-59894704836979256432015-07-26T12:31:09.034-07:002015-07-26T12:31:09.034-07:00I am so sad to hear that your anorexia is so stron...I am so sad to hear that your anorexia is so strong still Emmy. Please keep fighting and challenging your anorexic thoughhts. Yo uneed to remember that going against whatt your anorexi asays cant kill you, but listening to them can. For a while, fighting your anorexic thoughts will be incredibely easier but eventually it will get easier, i promise. But this will only happen if you face your fears and truly fight. Every time you fight your anorexia and win your anorexia gets weaker and you get stronger but if you dont do this then your anorexia will stay as strong as it is now, forever. Please fight Emmy. I know you can do it. You have already come so far and I know that you can do this.<br />Love Karly <3 Karlyjaynehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14969879671753748709noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-52602432787089790622015-07-26T08:29:26.620-07:002015-07-26T08:29:26.620-07:00Oh Emmy, I'm so sorry that you are going throu...Oh Emmy, I'm so sorry that you are going through a rough patch right now. But I have a suggestion about eating meals alone. When I was living in my own apartment, I used to send my Mum photos of each meal (before/after) to keep myself accountable. We had a long talk where I shared my meal plan with her, then I told her that I knew that I would probably skimp on challenges if someone wasn't there to keep me on the straight and narrow. So I sent her photos and told her to get "mad" at me if I wasn't following the plan. But because I knew that she was seeing what I was eating, I was able to follow my plan perfectly. And because I did that for so long, it just became habit so that now I don't need to do that anymore, as I can keep myself accountable (I also keep a log for my dietician which helps). Now I only send photos if I do some particularly difficult challenge and need some positive feedback about it. But it definitely helped in the harder times. Can you maybe sit down with your parents and ask if you can send them photos of your food if you are alone? I'm sure they would be happy to help in that way!<br /><br />Keep fighting!<br /><br />-N xxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-79338592604502619182015-07-26T07:08:48.737-07:002015-07-26T07:08:48.737-07:00You have to fight Emmy, fight with all the strengt...You have to fight Emmy, fight with all the strength you can possibly muster. Let me tell you from the heart that it is possible to fight and it is possible to leave behind that immaturity. Life seems impossibly terrifying for you. I have been you, in a nearly exact same situation, but now I am in a different, more mature situation. I am prepared to accept whatever life has to throw at me, and am determined not to be anxious about growing up, no matter how terrifying it seems. Life is out there waiting for you, Emmy. You have to go grasp it with both hands and live life to the full. I believe in you. I believe in your strength. I believe in your ability to fight against ED. I believe that one day, you will get there. Sending you my love and warmest hugs xoxoAngharad https://www.blogger.com/profile/03276065419684298280noreply@blogger.com