tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post275445578916793954..comments2023-05-31T08:26:05.818-07:00Comments on My Cocoa Stained Apron: Soul Searching Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-56503709905812267752017-09-13T15:46:25.538-07:002017-09-13T15:46:25.538-07:00<3 oh yes, I completely understand what you say...<3 oh yes, I completely understand what you say..that's EXACTLY how I feel right now. It's so very tough, we need to remember though we need not suffer alone this inner torment..I'm a firm believer in reaching out and for me that is why my blog has been such an enormous help to me in my recovery; writing out my thoughts and reading the supportive comments of readers like you really does help me so much! <br />I really hope you will continue to keep going to and that you have someone to talk to about what you are going through - and in ALL stages too, not just when you are underweight. <br />thank you so so much for your kind words <3 I really appreciate them. Take care too and stay strong. <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-26437104215988986392017-09-12T19:35:23.833-07:002017-09-12T19:35:23.833-07:00That's good to hear 😊 ❤️
I think eating diso...That's good to hear 😊 ❤️<br /><br />I think eating disorders (possibly even all mental illness) are just something that only the suffer/s understand, for me in my previous attempts to recover I've found that the closer i become to a healthy weight the more I struggle and part of that being because others see me as 'healthy' again because I look like I am but I'm really still fighting this huge internal battle and my thoughts seem to become even stronger than they've been even at my lowest weight. I imagine most people in recovery can relate to that.<br /><br />I definetly agree with you!<br />That's okay, I really hope you get the courage to sit down with your parents and chat about the way you're feeling and that they try their best to understand and support you in getting therapy. Take care of yourself and keep on fighting ❤️ x x xMy life with Anorexiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04709292276025402070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-44465447323669002212017-09-12T15:05:04.122-07:002017-09-12T15:05:04.122-07:00<3 thank you ever so much!! Your comment meant ...<3 thank you ever so much!! Your comment meant an awful lot and gave me a well needed positivity boost so thank you so much for that <3 <br />I think you are so right..this is, after all, the point at which I feel like I've been stuck at for as long as I can remember, and though I want so much to keep on going , it's just so very, very hard and scary to do so. I do need to reach out and I will keep your advice firmly in my mind <3 thank you ever so much!! Honestly, every one of these comments means more than the world to me. <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-61235943865682767722017-09-12T14:59:51.129-07:002017-09-12T14:59:51.129-07:00<3 Again, thank you so very, very much...I was ...<3 Again, thank you so very, very much...I was so so touched by what you wrote, and to know that you and others are thinking of me and cheering me on, that really has made an incredible difference to how I feel. So thank you so very much for your kind, thoughtful message. <3 <3 <3 <br /><br />And you are so right, I should try and talk to mam and dad about it.. I dont blame them for not understanding, for after all, in their eyes I look "healthy" and they think I don't need any sort of therapy, but after all they could not possibly know the intensity of the struggle going on inside my head.<br /><br />And what you said is so true...and I think a large part of recovery is learning to do what is best for YOU and not putting so much value on other people's opinions.<br />thank you so very much for all you wrote. I am so so grateful to you <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-9429632693353864922017-09-12T01:46:51.372-07:002017-09-12T01:46:51.372-07:00Don`t give up emmy - keep fighting. You have come ...Don`t give up emmy - keep fighting. You have come so far on your own but maybe now is that time to seek help. Can you talk to your mum? Maybe some extra support from her is all you need to stay motivated through this struggle? Tell her you are wavering and need support, then she will see for herself that you want to recover, that you are not giving up. Recovery is so hard and can be even more difficult if you are doing it alone, there is no shame in needing support when you are going through something as tough as this.<br />Try and stay strong and keep fighting. Take each day one by one and don`t feel bad about reaching out. <br />Take care, thinking of you and willing you on through this bad patch. xxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-88991821131585569772017-09-11T18:32:44.732-07:002017-09-11T18:32:44.732-07:00Sorry to read that you're struggling Em, you a...Sorry to read that you're struggling Em, you are most definetly not alone and every person who reads your posts care. Myself included..<br />You have done amazing to get to the point at which you are at, the bravery and courage you have shown to fight against ED for so long and to have made it this far is inspiring (especially to me to me as someone who is only in the very early stages of what I'm hoping will be my own recovery). <br />I definetly agree with what the above reader has said about now being a good time to have therapy and I do understand your concerns about your family and money situation (I'm in a similar situation) but I think if you spoke to your parents about your feeling and why you think you might benefit from therapy then they would/hopefully understand and come around.. but if not, perhaps it's just something you need to do without their approval? I know that's hard but it wouldn't be fair for you to risk jeopardising everything you've achieved and the chance of going further because of someone else's opinion. I know it can be so hard but sometimes you need to do what's best for you and try not to worry about what other people are thinking.<br /><br />I really hope your feeling better about everything soon and manage to find some resolution in your current struggles. <br />I know we don't speak or even know each other personally but I have read your blog for a while and often think of you. Please don't give up on your recovery x xMy life with Anorexiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04709292276025402070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-34782030300136249152017-09-11T16:06:09.400-07:002017-09-11T16:06:09.400-07:00thank you so, so much for your truly meaningful co...thank you so, so much for your truly meaningful comment..it really did mean so very much <3 <br />That is a very, very good question, and one which I might answer in more detail in my next post...you are right, I do want to do therapy, with all my heart. I know now that I cannot make full recovery on my own. But though I want so much to seek professional help, at the same time I find myself shying away from doing so - for numerous reasons, the main ones being the views of my family, and the money situation.. anyway, more on this in my next post.<br />Thank you so so much, you are so very kind, this meant alot to me. <3 xxxganacheelfhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10626465131918136643noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252306255652481387.post-28120020452318089362017-09-11T05:05:07.008-07:002017-09-11T05:05:07.008-07:00Dear Emmy,
You are not alone, and there are reader...Dear Emmy,<br />You are not alone, and there are readers who care....<br />But, I do think like the person commented in the last post that this would be a really good moment to find a therapist....<br />There *is* life and recovery and freedom on the other side of this, but there is work to do, and there are people who can help, you don't have to go through it so alone! (I admire your fighting spirit, and your honesty with yourself, and your strength.)<br />Therapists (when the relationship works well) are more than just company, though that is one of the most important things they are. But they are also reassurance and guidance when needed, not that you surrender yourself to them, but that they help you to recognise how and where to direct your steps, as you most deeply want and need to.<br />What is keeping you from it? You have written many times of thinking of finding one?<br />Love and respect, as always.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com